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steveandnat
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Well my friends it has been a very long emotional day for me. The scans show that the tumors in all areas, rectum, liver and lungs have grown and liver and lungs have got several new tumors. The chemo was having now effect so sadly after over four years of almost non stop treatment I'm going to contact hospice tomorrow. It is surreal after all this time now knowing that the end is really close. I've been a real emotional mess having to tell my wonderful kids and family. Considering the original dx was six months and now four years later being able to see both kids get married and the birth of ourgrandbaby I m grateful. I asked the onc based on the results how much time and the first response being no one really knows but with my fighting spirit it could be 6 to 12 months. I'm going to give it my all. Everyone here has been so great. I will continue to pray for everyone. If  anyone wants update i will do that. Better get to sleep have to go hospital early tomorrow to havblood look transfusion...3 units. Good night all and bless you all.  Jeff

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Dyanclark
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We will for sure pray for you.

HUGS George & Dyan 

 

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traci43
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Jeff - That is the news we all dread getting.  I'm sorry to hear it. I'll be praying for you and your family.  Traci

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thxmiker
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Keep Fighting the Dragon!

 

We have cancer.  We have a personnel battle.  We have a group that gives us strength!   There are answers out there. They are not always what we want to hear.  The answers are not always correct! As a group we add strength to each other;s battle.

We can helpeach other find answers and fight more battles.

 

We are sending our thoughts and prayers for your strength!

 

Best Always, mike

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lp1964
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Truelly sorry for the news and allow us to share your sorrow.

Take some time to digest the news and as Craig says, repurpose your life. As far as posting, do what's the best for you, but want you to know we would love to hear from you.

If I may suggest something. Now that the doctors cannot help you, have you considered looking into the Chinese herbs that John has been suggesting? You seems to be in a good spirit and maybe should give that a chance. He says no side effects and it's not really expensive. I would not choose that as the first choice, but I would definitely try if had no other options. And don't forget, believing in miracles at least helps to lift the spirit!

Wish you and your loved ones the strength to make the best of all the time you spend together.

Laz

myd
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I'm not on the forum a lot.  My wife is the one with cancer.  I'm very sorry for your news.  I'm happy that you were allowed to enjoy such great moments in your children's lives.  God Blessed you with those memories and the ones to come.  I would consider you a fortunate man.  I know that going through something like this was never in your plans, but you seem to have made the best of a bad situation.  May God watch over you and your family. 

MYD

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I am so sorry Jeff. You remember about this time last year I said you were a hero. That is still true and I truly believe you when you said "I am going to give it my all". Your are a wonderful person with such a great attitude and perspective on things.

jen2012
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Jeff...I'm so sorry that you received this news. You really are a fighter and I hope you continue to fight for a long time. Of course we want updates to how you are feeling. I continue to keep you in my prayers.

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BusterBrown
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Jeff,

Sorry to hear the news. Prayers coming your way!  Peace...

Buster

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johnnybegood
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i truly appreciate you coming here and giving us this news.you have been a true fighter and i know you will still contine to fight in your own way.you are at that cross road that so many of us will be.please dont leave the board but live your life to the fullest and check in when you feel you can.we will always be here to support you....Godbless...johnnybegood

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I can only imagine how unreal it all feels. So very sorry to hear your news....

will you drink the champagne anyway, and celebrate life???? These very moments are precious.

My heart goes out to you.

god bless

your friend incalifornia,

tommycat

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Annabelle41415
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So sorry that you didn't get better news.  You will be in my prayers as you try and take in what all is happening.  Please let us know how things are going for you. 

Kim

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You've always shown such a courageous and cheerful spirit here, Jeff.  Despite all that you've been through, you've never complained, always just kept going forward and appreciating the important things in life.  I hope you get plenty of time to enjoy your grandbaby, and share some more special moments with your family.  We are here for you too, as your "virtual family",  no matter what, so if you want to, please always feel free to share whatever aspects, good or bad, of the journey to come.  If you need a shoulder to cry on, we are here, and we understand at least some of the pain, as so many of us will join you at some point.  We all walk this path together.  You're just a few twists and turns ahead of us.

Lots o' love~AA

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LivinginNH
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Oh dear, Jeff, I'm so sorry to hear this news.  As others have said, enjoy your grandbaby and loving family each minute of every day.  But take time to watch the sun rise and fall, listen to the birds, sit by a waterfall and feel the peace of the earth surround you.  Somthing that we all should do more often...

All my best, take care,

Cyn

 

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Lovekitties
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I am so very sorry that you got this news. 

I hope that being off chemo will allow you to feel some better.

Please do stay in touch, and allow us to offer you whatever support and love we can from a distance.

You are a special person, and I wish for you comfort and ease in the time ahead.

Hugs,

Marie who loves kitties

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chp
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You have my prayers for a peace that surpasses all understanding! 

Cathy

Gavin63
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Hello Jeff,

So sorry to hear that your scan was not good. I am new to this forum. But feel that everyone here is part of my family. Have faith & miracles do happen.

As Laz said why not try the Chinese treatment ? You have nothing to loose, but everything to gain. You are in my prayers, So as all others who are fighting against this dreadful decease including me. 

Gavin   

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karguy
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I'm sorry to hear the bad news.I will keep praying for you.You put up a good fight.

Luv2lunch
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So very sorry about your news. We will be praying for you and your family.

Linda and Mom

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Trubrit
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I am so sorry to hear this news.  I weep tears for you and your beloved family. 

Remember, its not over until the fat lady sings ( I swear I'm going to ask a large lady to sing at my funeral).

Enjoy every moment that you have with your family and yourself. 

You said they told you six months and you are four years out from that; well, now they say 6 - 12 months, and who knows you may find yourself moving toward another four years.  

I know its got to be hard to think positive at a time like this, but I pray that you can, and then help your body do what it needs to stretch out as much time in comfort that you can.

You have touched out hearts, may we touch yours now and help give you strengh. 

Blessings.

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marbleotis
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Please take time and absorb the news then work on a plan that is right for you.  It is ok to contact hospice and get that behind you.  Then figure out some next steps.

There are many options.  You are in shock right now.  Please get other opinions.

Keep us posted.

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geotina
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I am so sorry over the news you received.  I know so very well how you and your family are feeling right now.  It is so very difficult and heartbreaking. 

I wish you and your family peace and love.

Tina

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mukamom
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today while Robert was in treatment. I am so sorry. Sending prayers for you and your family.

 

Angela

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hippiechicks
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I wish comfort and peace for you on your new journey.  Enjoying your grandbaby .. family .. and friends is priceless. 

I can relate from a care givers point and of course now in my own battle.   This news is never easy to hear .. although we all know what the odds are, our oncologists being sure we know this from the beginning, it never makes it easy when we are custome to fighting.  Taking the time you need to process this and figure out your new path is important right now.  Whatever that may be, as you know, everyone here is supporting you. 

I too would be tapping into those herbs right about now .. if not for time maybe comfort. 

Sending (((HUGS)))

Are there any trials available for you maybe?  I hear there have really been some huge advances.  The last time I checked the website, they were looking for people where the chemo has run out. Just a thought .. as others have said ... I will be watching for your posts if you are feeling up to it, if not it is understood .. but please know I will be keeping you in prayers.

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herdizziness
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I have tears in my eyes.  This is such sad freaking news.  I keep hoping we can last long enough for some new miracle cure to come along, and so far it hasn't, death via cancer just ticks me off.

You have been such an encouragement to us on this board, a bright star on bad days, and I thank you for that, and hope we can return the favor as you travel on your new journeys.  I wish for you such happiness filling your coming days and months, I know you will still continue to spread joy to those around you.

We're hear for you when you need us.

Hugs and Luv,

Winter Marie

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Kathleen808
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Jeff,

I am truly sorry that you recieved this news.  My heart breaks for you and your family.  You have been such a strong spirit throughout the years.  I pray that this part of your journey is filled with more love and joy even though there will be hard times too.  Enjoy your precious g'baby.

 

Thinking of you.

Aloha,

Kathleen

Cathleen Mary
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Jeff,

You were the first to welcome me to this forum and have always held a special place in my heart.  I am so sorry that you received the news we all don't want to hear. 

I pray that you and your family will enjoy many years more than your doc seems to think. There is a Celtic saying that calls the place between heaven and earth a 'thin place'.....we all inhabit that place from time to time. Regardless, you will will always be close. Not meaning to sound preachy; just hopeful.

Savor all good things.  Know you are cherished by many.

Hugs,

Cathleen Mary

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steveandnat
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Wow, I really appreciate all the kind words. Its funny, I got three units of blood on Wednesday which gave me a little burst of energy. So, I hope I didn't over do it like my family told me. I chuckled that if I could I wouldn't sleep. What the heck there will plenty of time for that. I'm sure that energy level is going to change. Bless you all and if you want I will continue with new updates.  Jeff

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herdizziness
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yes of course we want you to continue with the updates on yourself.  Glad you got that burst of energy, may you have much more continued energy!

 

Winter Marie

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Trubrit
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Bless you all and if you want I will continue with new updates.  Jeff

We are blessed, we're blessed to know you

Yes, we do want to hear from you, as long as you are fit and able come visit us here often. 

 

Luckygirl2
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and thoughts to you and your family.  Praying for strength and peace for you and your family.  Please keep us updated, you are an inspiration.

 

Debbie

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Maxiecat
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I am so sorry...I will keep you on my prayers.

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