Sep 23, 2013 - 8:09 am
I am in my early 40s, single with no kids, had a wonderful but very stressful job and decided it was time to give it up and do something new. The job had taken its toll on me emotionally and physically so I knew I needed time to heal. I paid all of my bills and put money back so I could travel and rest for a few months before looking for a new job. It was exciting to think that I could go anywhere because I have no ties holding me down. I had already booked and paid in full for a cruise when we found out my Mom has stage 3 ovarian cancer. I thought I had at least 15 to 20 more years that I could spend with her so I was completely blindsided. I immediately canceled my cruise and will be moving back to my home state to help care for my Mom this weekend. My Mom is my best friend so I am not sure how to navigate this terrain. I have gone through a whole gamut of emotions. From anger because I feel like my life is over to guilt for feeling this way to sadness. I keep telling myself “this is not about me” but I can’t help but wallow in my own sorrow a bit. We have experienced a lot of sickness in our family so I know that I will cherish this time with her. I feel so selfish for having these feelings. Is this normal?