Sep 17, 2013 - 10:46 am
My mother did not get routine check ups for decades. She was diagnosed with Cervical cancer but unfortunately too late. It is in all her lymph nodes and her lungs. They have given her 1 week to 1 year to live. She has been undergoing radiation therapy for a few weeks. Today she is having surgery to put stents in her kidneys prior to her beginning Chemotherapy. I am the baby of 2. My recent marriage was a disaster and I recently had a child that just turned 2 years old. Due to financial issues I had to move back home with my mother at the age of 40 with my child. She is supporting me and taking care of my son. My ex is not paying child support which outs further strain on things. I have no idea what I am going to do to take care of myself and my child. That alone scares me....but I am posting right now because I am hurt. We had all of those shootings in the DC area where I live and all I wanted to do was go home and hug my mom and my son and tell them that I love them. My mom readily loves and hugs and kisses my son, but when I asked her to hugs me so I could tell her I lover (worried about her surgery today) she phyically pushed me away and told me to leave her alone!! I cried all night. If something happens that is the last memory that I have with her. I understand that she may be scared...I can find several excuses as to why she may have behaved that way ...but it hurts so much! I just wanted to hug her and tell her that I loved her and all she did was push me away and reject me. It is the following day and I am still in tears. I worry that this behavior will get worse. I am not sure I can handle this!!