Sep 05, 2013 - 8:59 pm
I had a nephrectomy in May of this year. I am still a little fatigued, but am now starting to feel "human" again. Prior to this, in 2008/2009, I had breast cancer with lymph node involvement...had mastectomy, removed most lymph nodes under my arm, had a year of chemo and I had 30 rounds of radiation. Two years later, had a second mastectomy, prophylactically, as after 3 biopsies, they found that the tissue in that breast was changing and they didn't know why...but said it was "troubling."
Ok, so, it has been quite a bit of stress and surgeries and cancer battles in just a 5 year period.
I saw my primary today for a regular check-up. She chastised me for gaining a bit of weight (I admit it). And she chastised me when I said that I become fatigued many afternoons. She told me that I cannot use my latest surgery (the nephrectomy) as an excuse forever, in order to sit around and do nothing. That I was certainly healed by now. That I need to push myself. Seriously? Then, she told me that she was not happy with my kidney function numbers and the next ones had better be improved. It was at this point that I truly wanted to just cry. Can one really improve those numbers in some way?
I'm not a lazy person. I never have been. I DO get tired at times. I don't use cancer/treatment as an excuse to sit around. I do try. I did gain a little weight, (6 pounds) but I don't intend to keep gaining weight.
Anyway, I just needed to say all of that and I didn't want to burden my family with it. So, thank you in advance for letting me get it out here.