Aug 19, 2013 - 10:34 am
I am new to this site and hope to find some good information here from other lung cancer patients. I've been to many med sites on internet and read extensively about lung cancer. I am stage 3 adeno and had cancerous lymphs outside lung removed.
I completed first round of treatments (chemo/radiation) and just had my follow up PET last week with result showing no obvious disease. Something showed but doctor said we'll wait 'til next scan to see if it's still there.The doctor was surprised by my lack of joy. I told her I have read on the internet that most people have clear scans the first time but have recurrences months later. I am depressed knowing this is true for the majority of cases. I am having a hard time with this fact and am afraid I will spend the rest of my time worrying about that dreadful five year hurdle that few reach. She said that only 20% make it to five years. I asked if any of her patients made it to that mark but she answered that 'everyone's different' and I should stay positive.
I've read a few posts on here (lc threads) as well as other cancers and feel I can't feel joy for fear of disappointment later which I won't be able to handle. Is this some natural defense and has anyone else felt this way? I feel hopeless.
Please don't lecture me about being positive as I have been lying to everyone about how I feel since a doctor told me I was too negative and it is positive thinking patients who do best in dealing with cancer. How do you get positive with such depressing statistics handed to you?
I am embarrassed to post this.