Hey everyone. I just recently lossed my mom from breast cancer less than two weeks ago.. I'm only fourteen and am really having a bit of a tough time with all this. I dont understand why God would take such a wonderful person at just the age of 41. It doesn't seem fair. My mom was there for me through everything, she was at every football and baseball game, every party, every school event or band concert, she was just always there for everything, regardless of her medical condition. She never even missed a day of work. Needless to say, she didnt let cancer have any control in her life. And just in a blink of an eye, she's gone..
Over her last days, I was right at her bedside seeing her slip away... watching such a strong person weaken with every day that passed. Slowly seeing the life being taken out of my mom was so hard.. I was right there holding her hand for hours when her time was coming to an end, hearing every breath she took and not knowing if it would be her last. I'd tell her I loved her, half expecting her to suddenly open her eyes and have her tell me she loved me more like she always did. But I knew, and my dad knew, and my sister knew, and everyone else packed in with us in that small hospital room knew that even if she did heard me, we'd never hear her tell us she loved us ever again.
With all this going on, the last thing I needed was school to start up again. But last week, it did. And I got through it every day. But high school football is starting up for me tomorrow and I really don't want to play anymore. I feel too weak, both mentally and physically to do anything, let alone football. There isn't a minute that passes where my mom isn't on my mind and I don't know how I could even play, yet I'm just not someone that quits. I don't know what to do. If you guys have any advice for me I'd love to hear it.
Thanks for your time,