Aug 15, 2013 - 6:05 pm
I completed treatment (bilateral lumpectomies, chemo, and radiation) at the end of 2009. I'm on Tamoxifen and have some (manageable) side effects from that, but thankfully, I'm healthy now and continue to have good checkups and boring mammograms.
But even 4 years later, I find I still get uneasy and preoccupied on my treatment "anniversaries." I started chemo in August -- this time in 2009, I was getting ready for Round 2 of chemo. And I find myself feeling anxious and sad, remembering how difficult it was and how alone and isolated I felt then. I go through similar feelings in May, when I was diagnosed, and in November-December, when I did radiation.
None of this is debilitating or keeps me from living my life -- I'd just really like to hear if some of you who are out of treatment have feelings like this, too? For the first couple of years, I figured it was normal, but after nearly 4 years...?