Aug 08, 2013 - 1:11 pm
I wanted to share with all of my friends here, especially those struggling during recovery or with recurrance. Long story short, LBC (life before cancer), I was strong physically and mentally, scrappy, great work ethic, involved in all aspects of life. Then I was married June 2012, diagnosed with stage IV SCC RT tonsil, late August 2012, had a rough go during treatments lost 85 pounds, sick all the time, and actually assumed several times I wouldn't make it through the night. Regular side effects of lack of energy, comprimised swallow, loss of taste, pretty much the full meal deal. I had two Sons who I am extremely close with, leave home for the military, marriage dissolved, lost a career I loved, am loosing my house, and was pretty convinced I was loosing my mind, couldn't concentrate, can't remember , hand eye coordination gone, nightmares, night sweats, avoiding social contact, pretty much stayed im my recovery caccoon, (recliner in bedroom), started to regain energy ventured into the garage to work on a rebuild project , but still realized something just wasn't right in my head. I have always struggled with depression, and was able to treat it with meds, dropped off all meds during treatment, because everything made me vomit, restarted when I was able to swallow the capsules, and keep them down, but it just didn't seem to be working......I went into what I could only describe as super depression. After taliking with my family docter I was referred to a psychiatrist for medication review. During our discussion he determined that I more than likely have severe PTSD, from the cancer scare, even though I am in remission. I basically pegged the symptom chart for PTSD / Depression. So just something to be aware of, if you are having symptoms, you can't quite explain, might be worth thinking about. I am just starting a new medicine regime, and will keep you posted on progress, at least now I have an idea what I am fighting.......