Aug 06, 2013 - 12:45 pm
Last Saturday I received word that my mothers 11 year battle with non hodgkins lymphoma was coming to an end. The doctors estimate 2 weeks. Since the diagnosis I have been unable to keep food down, suffer extreme nauesa and experienice intense bouts of dry heaving. I am trembly and weak and have little to no appetite and of course, many tears. Has anyone experienced symptoms of grief similar to this? I want to avoid medicating myself so I may fully experiencto he grieving process and heal but also want to make sure I don't allow myself to physically deteriorate. The worst part of this is the enormous amount of guilt I'm experiencing in feeling that Im not strong enough to be there for her in the way she deserves. I want to stay overnight with her but im afraid her seeing me in this condition will make her fearful about leaving me. I don't want to cause her any additional emotion distress. Can anyone speak to this experience?