Jul 29, 2013 - 2:17 pm
I must say that "scanxiety" surprised me in regards to severity. I was doing OK keeping my mind occupied, but I am having some interesting symptoms. For the past three nights I have had some pretty nasty nightmares that I cannot get away from. Normally I will have an occasional bad dream but I can force myself to wake up and end the dream. These recent dreams are very persistant and withstand waking up. I will wake up and remind myself that it was just a dream, but when I fall back asleep, there it is waiting for me where I left off. Crazy stuff. Last night I took my Lorazepam along with an OxyCodone and the dreams were a little less intense. No memories of something horriffic happening in my dreams.
I had my first scan after three months of votrient use this morning. I had to drink contrast at 7:30am and then again at 8:30am before going in for the scan. That has got to be one of the worst tasting liquids I ever put into my mouth. To me it tastes like a swimming pool cover smells like right out of the packaging. Bonus - I got to the hospital for the scan and learned I was getting more contrast via an IV. What the heck? Why didn't they just skip the personal torture and use the IV for all of it like they did the first time three months ago? My wife and I also noticed that they keep the contrast in a locked refridgerator. Is there some street value to contrast? Do the elderly perhaps like the warm feeling they get after injecting the contrast so they turn to the streets to get their fix? Anyway, I have one more night to get through and I will hear the results tomorrow at noon. I am praying for shrinkage of the tumors. I would settle for no growth. I don't know how I'll react if there is new growth. Regardless, it's out of my control. I can only pray for the best.
Thanks for letting me vent and to share my experiences with all of you.