Jul 13, 2013 - 10:09 am
I'll be posting this and hitting the shower to get ready for my first gig post treatment. It's a wedding I booked last year for a lovely couple I met while performing on the Skyline Drive at Skyland resort. I hired a violinist to perform with me. Fortunately, this gig doesn't require vocals and is instrumental only.
I'm looking forward to it as the selection of music is wonderful. The wedding party will come down the aisle to "Canon in D" (pretty common) but he bride is walking the aisle to "Oh Shnandoah", a beautiful instrumental version I found that rings of mountain music. They will leave after saying "I Do" to George Straight's "I Cross My Heart". Prior to the ceremony, we will be playing some beautiful selections of traditional music and waltzes. The rehearsals the last few weeks sounded wonderful.
It will be a rather long day between travel, set up etc., but knowing we'll be a part of this couple's special day is a wonderful feeling. A few short months ago, I didn't know if I would be able to do this. The meds have kicked in and I feel "Ok". I hope to get a burst of energy as I'll need it!
Unfortunately, I'm coming to the realization that the gigs I have booked for August and September will have to be cancelled. I've tried singing and my voice is no where near ready to do a 2 hour gig. Due to the surgery my throat is narrower and still has a lot of healing to do. While I can sing some songs, my higher range is no where to be found at this point in time. Time will tell if I'll regain pre-cancer form. The scar tissue that has narrowed my throat needs therapy to help break it up and I still need many months to heal. At best, I may be able to do a gig or two before the end of the year. Realistically, I'm looking at next year before I can perform at the level I'm accustomed to, if in fact I ever will again.
This is a very sobering realization and one that has my spirits in turmoil. My worst fear was not being able to perform. I know, I know... I'm alive. I get that but part of living for me was performing. It's what I've done since I was a young teen. I also know it hasn't affected my playing but my voice and expressing myself through song is a huge part of who and what I am as a person.
I know I'm still early on in recovery and things may change but this is where I'm at right now. I'm very thankful for today and the opportunity I'm being presented. I can only hope and pray that I will continue to heal and improve. Progress is measured in weeks and months so time will tell.
Congratulations to the Bride and Groom. See you in a little while!