Jul 09, 2013 - 3:49 pm
This is my first time posting here and my first time actually coming online to any information site regarding cancer since my fiance was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer.
I don't even know how to phrase or explain what I want your opinion on, so please bear with me. As I said, my fiance was diagnosed with a stage 4 colon cancer at the age of 33. He had a mass on the colon and metastases in the liver. This was 2 months ago.
He's already undergone surgery to remove the infected part of the colon - everything seems fine - and now he's getting chemo through both hepatic pump and systemic. I'm just about to go meet him now.
He's being seen at Sloan Kettering and the doctors seem very optimistic. He's gone back to work, he's working out and eating healthy (really good apetite), he's starting acupuncture and his spirits are very positive (with his downturns, which are to be expected). But we both believe we will win this fight and that all will work out fine.
I'm reaching out because I don't know how to deal with online information - I've been avoiding reading anything cancer related as I'm terrified of the sad stories out there. I've tried to only see positive stories. This is causing me some anxiety because, partially, I've wanted to go online and get more informed. But I feel getting more informed is going to make me break down as I can't deal or face with the possible outcome. Just writting this makes me want to vomit and my heart races to a point of an anxiety attack.
How have you dealt with this? I'm sure my problem isn't unique. How did you cope with wanting to get information but not being able to deal with what was available online?