Jun 17, 2013 - 4:01 pm
I'm afraid I've been hit with the "What If's" today. I guess it doesn't make sense, but I just keep thinking "What if I had only given permission to remove my hubby's vent, but continue with dialysis & all the meds for infection, heart & diabetes? Would he ever have recovered enough to even fight the cancer, or did I make the right decision to discontinue everything?"
I know there is no definitive answer for this, but it just eats at me. Just the fact that he woke long enough to say "I'm alive", but then went to sleep again. All the doctors & even my son tell me that he would never have survived or been able to continue the cancer treatments and the end result would have been the same, but with much more pain & discomfort. I guess, at least this way he was able to retain a glimmer of dignity.
Sorry to post a "downer". Just looking for a little comfort, I guess.