May 15, 2013 - 1:22 am
Hi, I'm curious to know if anyone on this discussion board has dealt with what I am dealing with now. I finished chemo/radiation therapy in December of last year. I was given a clean bill of health this year, with one proviso. My oncologist for chemo told me that in order to be absolutely certain that there was no cancer remaining I would have to visit my proctologist for a digital exam.
The day of my appointment I have to admit I had some anxiety, mainly due to the fact that I was either going to be told I was cancer free, or there was cancer remaining. I was not able to allow my proctologist to finish the exam because it was just too painful. I know the anus can develop a kind of stynosis, similar to the vagina in women. He told me that in order to finish the exam I would have to be put under anesthesia, to which I agreed.
Since I had the first, albeit aborted digital exam I have developed an awful pain in my anus. My anus, even more so after the exam under anesthesia, feels like when you hit your thumb with a hammer, especially when standing for more than a few minutes, which makes me just want to stay in bed all day.
If anyone on this board is familiar with what I'm speaking of I would appreciate any input. Even though, as a result of the exams I've been told without question I am cancer free I don't feel like it. The pain I'm experiencing is as bad as it was during treatment. I'm frustrated and depressed, and wonder if I really am cancer free. I'm sure anyone who has been treated for anal cancer knows how awful that feeling is......
Once again I thank anyone ahead of time who can shed some light on this most unfortunate of cir***stances......Mitch