May 14, 2013 - 3:33 am
Before I had to switch to Erbitux my CEA had jumped from 22 to 83. After only 3 cycles of Erbitux the CEA was down to 42...Encouraging. After my last 4 wkly cycles now it's up to 66.....Hmmmm. Not too bad, not too good. A consistent trend will give more info. I'm still optimistic, but remain accepting of what ever comes in the future. I think the best thing about stage IVb CA is that if it comes to an end, it's not a tragic sudden event. I have time to forgive and be forgiven, I have time to tidy up loose ends, I have time to reflect on the best times of my life, and my loved ones have time to ease the closure. There's no reason for me to get depressed or weakened after 4 & 1/2 yrs of this. I still feel like there is nothing wrong, the 97 cycles of chemo hasn't bothered me much, I work at my job or my yard every day, I have to make concessions, but cancer doesn't rule my life.
The pic is about 3 yrs old, but it's one of my favorites. Karen & I had a chance to dive in Fiji with some great friends. We're saving for a Grand Caymen live aboard dive trip in Aug. Mastercard is going to love me.