May 02, 2013 - 1:15 pm
Today marks four weeks since David's passing. I got a call today and his disability was approved (lol). I am having such a hard time being alone. I want to be in the safety of marriage. This really sucks. Sorry I don't feel like I can be real anywhere else. Everyone is watching and I don't feel like if I said what I really think it would be received well. People who have not lost someone like this do not understand. I walk around like an alien feeling so alone. I am still looking to God every day to get up and go on, but it is really hard. I love everyone here and continue to pray and care about you guys. You have been lifelines so many times. Please tell the ones you love today how much they mean to you. Be thankful for the time you have with them, it is a blessing. I continue to pray for blessings for my CSN family.