Apr 18, 2013 - 7:49 pm
I have only posted once here before. I have BC with mets to the pelvic/spine. I had radiation and it has really relieved a lot of pain in my back. I still feel stiffness, but not sure what to do about that (or if I can). It would be nice to feel even better. Asking for too much, maybe? LOL
I am also having a hard time sleeping. Tried Midnite (OTC), but it doesn't help as much as I hoped. I still wake up just about every 2 hours. I do not want to take anything that is going to make me groggy in the morning or something that I will have to take forever. I'm on Tamoxifen and monthly injections of Zometa, so I am also not sure if anything will interfere. And, yes. I will probably ask my doctor. :) And...I'm open for suggestions from any of you, of course.
I just went back to work on Monday and I feel pretty good. Starting off P/T and then will work my way back into F/T in the next few weeks (hopefully). I am a little tired, but not too much (and mostly when I feel zonked, it's due to not sleeping good the night before).
So...I feel good, but I wonder if I should be enjoying it. I know that sounds funny to say, but I just sometimes wonder if another ball is going to drop on me. I was just really diagnosed in December with this and so it's still all fairly new. I read WAY too much on the internet. Some of it awful, some of it good...and then I rely on forums - like this - to REALLY find out "now" information because to me, reading all these stories with people living with bone mets for a long while is REALLY helping me. I am encouraged, inspired, and really grateful that others are sharing their stories and experiences. I realize that all the stuff I was reading on the internet....in the end...nobody really can tell you anything. An expiration date? Hard to tell because nobody has one and everyone is individual. I try to steer away from the statistics of it all. Do you think I'm finally learning? :)
I am 42 with 3 young kids and I want to be around for a long time. Period. Bottom line. Yes, I know....Doesn't everyone? So you know...most days now, I don't "forget", but I try not to think the "doom and gloom" every minute of the day. I'm not sure what it is...whether it's just that I've been busy with other things or that I am beginning to gain more positivity in thinking that I really CAN and WILL deal with this for a long while....Hmmmm....
Anyway, I am just yapping, but appreciate being able to come on here. Of course, nobody has to respond. Sometimes it's good just to yap, so thank you if you've read this!