Apr 16, 2013 - 8:22 pm
I guess the wheels are starting to fall off the wagon. I have not yet spoke with my Oncologist, but the read on my scan is "progression of disease." I have significant growth of the tumors in my Mediastynum, and the pneumonia they said I had 6 weeks earlier is gone. I am a "mental wreck" as this is a huge blow to handle after a 20-24 week ride of success. I've had so much good luck of late, my wife got the job of her life, I retired so I could focus on staying healthy, moving to Texas, and my house in STL even sold before it was listed. I know I need to go to a plan B, and I don't even know what that is yet, but being strong mentally has been a huge challenge for me of late. I feel like such a whimp, especially after reading of others real battles on this site.
I could really use some advice on the mental aspect as I am in the best physical shape of my life and to look at me you would never guess I have a life threatening disease.