Apr 16, 2013 - 4:36 pm
Yesterday I saw my Oncologist for CA125 result etc to receive news that for the 3rd time in a row my numbers have increased! (179-203-265-329) I have had 5 rounds of Gemcetabine and oral cytoxan (cycloblastin) so those aren't helping! Next week I start on Topotecan - treatment 3 days in a row and again in 21 days. This will be my fourth chemo regime in 14 months - carbo/taxol, doxil (caelyx), gemcetabine/cytoxan and now this! Will I ever get into remission??? My cancer is Stage 4 and i realise it is tough to crack but how much can it take before it gives up??? Thankfully I am feeling so well in myself and I am so so grateful for that. I am eating well, exercising and seeing my naturopath who is helping me keep my body and bloods in the best possible shape. My baby grandson also such a blessing and I try not to think about not being around as he grows up. I am normally so positive but this has really shattered me! Sorry to lay this out there but what to do??? Just keep on keeping on I guess! Thank you all for being out there! We are just back from a lovely 10 day holiday in New Zealand when I tried really really hard not to think about the dreaded "C" word and enjoyed ourselves. I have some work to do to get myself back up there on the positivity scale!
Love to all, Julie (Australia)