Apr 07, 2013 - 4:56 pm
hi everyone, i am just feeling a little all over the place at the moment and i just wanted to touch base with all of you brilliant people!! i was feeling ok well as ok as you can feel after going through what most of us have gone through.
i went to see my doc the other day just to ask a couple of questions and i suppose he kinda upset me a bit. i told him about me possibly changing my job to go back as cabin crew and he said there was no medical reason why i couldn't do it but then he said that if anything was to show up on my scan was i in a position to take time off for treatment!! god i was so positive up to that and now i feel like he slapped me in the face!!
i know i am probably being over sensitive but i have been feeling very teary for the last couple of days after feeling so great for weeks. i am now doubting lots of things and i feel that i would not be able to go back full time in case something did happen. does everyone feel like this? i know its going to be ups and downs but i wasn't expecting to feel like this after my visit. i suppose he has made me feel that i should expect something even though he said im not saying it will but just in case!!
anyway thanks for listening again.