Apr 04, 2013 - 5:03 pm
I have always struggled with depression, and have had some sucsess with medications, however, being diagnosed with cancer in Aug of 2012, has really kicked this in to high gear, and with all of the financial struggles, being constantly sick, weak, loss of work, and many other worries, I find myself mentally exausted, and my will to fight or even live life is almost non existent. I find myself wishing the cancer would have taken me. I have no energy, no desire to do things I used to take pleasure in, work is drudgery. Just really struggling right now...I was freshly married in June of 2012, and at least in part to the depression and cancer, we are no longer together, friends but not husband and wife. My Oldest son had just joined the Air Force prior to my diagnoses, and my youngest joined the Army as my treatments ended. I love them both so much and miss them dearly. I am so proud of them, and seeing them succeed has been a blessing. I am just kind of down right now .....thanks for letting me vent.