Apr 03, 2013 - 6:26 pm
just came back from psychiatrist at Princess Margaret Hosp....I have been in a depression....2 chemos not working, my husbands Immigration refused (we will appeal) and my father's recent death
I asked for an antidepressant and was given Remeron
I am writing now for 2 reasons:
1 anyone's experience with Remeron...does it increase the fatigue?...my main problem....I heard that the fatigue is temporary...did it help your depression?
2: I need reasurrance that this is not "end of life"....came home from the psychiatrist just now with hysterical crying as I think those words emerged from her mouth, even though I dont know in what context...she was looking at the chart:
The initial carboplatin/taxol did not work for me
then neither did the doxil, which was awful
Now I am on weekly taxol...tomorrow will be my 5th. Monday appt with oncologist and am afraid she will tell me it is not working..."go straight to Palliative"
If this doesnt work, ladies please tell me that it is still possible that SOMETHING will be effective eg GEMZAR
I am definitely not ready to die
I am depressed, and fatigued, but otherwise no symptoms
A few weeks ago, When I was between chemos, I felt almost normal, except for some mild fatigue, which is normal after chemo. I have zero cancer symptoms
Went swimming, travelled to Montreal to my father's funeral, am hoping to travel to Cuba in a few weeks to meet with my husband (half way between Toronto and Colombia, where he lives)
My Blood counts are normal Hemoglobin is 127.....if I were terminal, one would at least expect to see an "anemia of chronic disease"
I get so much more POSITIVE attitude and role models from you ladies on this site, than from my oncologists, who have emitted nothing but negativity since this whole thing began. Am I supposed to give up hope?
I get the impression that Americans tend to view cancer nowadays more as managing a chronic disease, and are more aggressive in treatment than Canadian. This attitude certainly helps my depression!
so am very much looking forward to some words of wisdom from you ladies to get me out from under despair, and back onto the positive track, which I was on for the 1st year
Thanks alot, everyone
ps sorry about the other 2 similar missives, which I wrote when this one did not appear
I dont know how to get rid of them..can anyone tell me how?