Mar 27, 2013 - 2:45 pm
Last March 2, 2013, my auntie, who is in the US with my father and their other siblings, called me up in the Philippines and told me that my Papa has stage 4 Colorectal cancer. Since she couldn't contact my mother who was at an out-of-town seminar, she opted to call me instead, and told me to be the bringer of bad news to the rest of my family. How was I to tell my mother who was busy with work, my eldest brother who was celebrating his birthday that day and his son who is just 14 years old, my second brother and his wife and baby daughter who were living away at the capital city, and my third eldest brother who has autism that our father is sick? A few days before that news, Papa messaged me and told me that he was scheduled for a check-up in the next days, and that he was afraid. He also told me that he wished he could have been a better husband to my mother and a better father to us, 4 siblings.
I've read that it's going to be a tough ride, even if I'm not the one suffering from the disease and I also learned that I'm supposed to talk about my feelings, especially to those who are around me. But I can't be all too emotional about what I'm going through especially at work (I'm a college instructor) because I can't let it affect my duties. I am still lucky though because I have very sympathetic close friends (maybe because most of them are nurses). I have been crying a lot lately, and come April 2, it would be a month since I learned of the news and the thought of not being able to see and be with my papa is so hard for me to take. I last saw him when I was 3 years old and what's sad is, I couldn't even remember about his visit. I was only told by my family about it and I only saw it in pictures. He hasn't been able to come back home for many years because of his diabetes and heart disease. It has been my lifelong dream to see my Papa. I do hope that I would be able to go to the US soon. I am asking for your prayers for my father, my family and for me that I be able to successfully process my visitor's visa to the states.
I am regularly writing in my blog about my father and my family's ordeal. Please visit it and thanks in advance for the support and the prayers. www.mspatsperous.wordpress.com