Mar 26, 2013 - 3:56 pm
Hi everyone- I have never posted anything like this on a board like this, but during my research you have all seemed to be so caring and comforting. My problem started about a year ago- I know that's a long time to go unchecked- but I didn't have the health insurance to do anything about it. I started to notice an abnormal mass under my right breast- nothing moveable and no real pain. It almost felt like a back mouse I had diagnosed several years ago. I asked some friends and family to feel it, but they all brushed it off saying to was probably nothing. As someone who has suffered from several serious and/or chronic illnesses in my life, I still felt I knew my body well enough to believe something wasn't right.
It's been over a year, i think, since i first noticed it in the shower. It has gotten bigger and i now feel pain- which i believe is connected- in my rib cage and directly underneath. I am 28 years old and have no history of cancer in my family (aside from a maternal grandmother who was diagnosed in her 70's with brain cancer). I am extremely terrified of what this could be- I have had so many "statistically unlikely" health problems and have become basically phobic of doctors. On top of that, I became incredibly scared of "getting cancer" even before this issue directly developed. I see so many of you brave women dealing with similar circumstances. Sometimes i think actually going to get diagnosed is the scariest part. I know I have to see a doctor- and now that i have some health insurance I will. I am just beyond terrified and wonder how any of you have dealt with that. I find myself unable to sleep at night and SURE that something is terribly wrong with me and, if it is, I have waited too long. My panic has gotten out of control. Please, any words of wisdom or encourage would be so greatly appreciated. Thank you all!