Mar 22, 2013 - 12:53 am
Not sure how or why i ended up here today but i truly believe everything happens for a reason. I just had my 12 year anniversary surviving throat cancer :-) I forget all the fun technical terms about my cancer but it was advanced. Stage4, Radical neck dissection, tumor left tonsil, golf ball sized lump in my left lymph nodes. 20 hour surgery to include cutting through my jaw and opening me up. 38 radiation treatments no Chemo. lost 95 lb. in 6 months. tough times that made me a better person today. I was 40 years old with my son and family supporting me. My first reaction when i found out was (Thank god it’s me and not one of my family members) Over the last 12 years there have been many challenges. No Saliva is a big one and i live on Xylitol mints for helping keep moisture in my mouth. Spent over 20K on my teeth and know I’m going to lose that battle but I’m not ready yet. My favorite food is "Viet PHO" OMG i love it.... Every bite has to have moisture and twice i almost choked to death.... Thankfully both times someone was near to himelick me. I'm suffering from some type of acid reflux that has worsened over the past 3-years. Today i am 52 years and loving life. I believe i was spared and it’s to help shape the lives of my grandkids. I like to think i have an advantage over most people. Others do not get to see life like i do. With that said if you were recently diagnosed or in recovery it’s tough to see 12 years down the road. i was hoping for 5 years at the time. Tough to be positive when you have to go through so much and your mind has consumed you. Every day you wake up is a beautiful day. Today is a gift and you must find something good about it. There are good days and there are better days. in 52 years I’ve only had a few bad days and the funny part is they are now my "Best" days" Kuz i made it through them. I lost a good friend last week and am going to his funeral Saturday. I will celebrate his life and be thankful for our time together. Sometimes Cancer is harder on friends and family than the one who suffers the disease. With that said i wanted to send some hope, strength and respect to those who are currently in the fight. (That includes the loved ones supporting them) God bless you all......