Mar 21, 2013 - 12:11 pm
Hi I was diagnosed 6 and half weeks ago with RCC, I had two tumors on my kidney. I had know idea I was sick, a month and a half before I wound up in the hospital I was urinating blood clots like crazy. A doctor told me it was probably kidney stones and that I should get a CT scan just to be sure. I did not have insurance as I am a displaced teacher. So I put off the scan until I could get a job. In early February I was driving down the road and I had a massive pain in my side and back. My wife took me to the hospital where I thought they were going to say I was passing a stone, but instead the Dr. said he had bad news I did not have a stone I had kidney cancer. My reaction was shock and I said all things considered I would rather have a kidney stone.
24 hours later I was having my kidney removed when they discovered I had not one but two tumors on my kidney. I felt like i was rushed and had no time to process any of this I broke down three days later in the hosiptal. To make matters worse I finally got a great job with insurance but when I called them and said I would not be able to start working for six to eight weeks they said they could not wait and withdrew their offer. I have been so depressed, when I met with the oncologist he said I had a fourty percent chance of cancer returning, and that if it does it would probably be terminal. I know I am supposed to keep positive but with the cancer being so new and me being out of work I have been horribly depressed part of me wonders if having my kidney removed was the right thing to do. My wife has been fantastic through this but I still feel all alone.
I stumbled on this site and felt like I could talk to people who know what I am going through I hope I don't sound like a pitty me or a "sad sack" I just feel like I can't share everything with my wife she has shoulderd such a great burden I don't want to make her load heavier, and quite frankly she does not understand what is going on in my head. I appreciate any support.