Mar 21, 2013 - 3:03 am
Hello, I don't know where to start, but after two endless, and sleepless days I landed myself here. I feel like I need group therapy as no one I know, other than you all on this site can understand me and my pain. My mom started showing signs of being sick right after Christmas. She had this awful cough, and chest congestion that seemed to never dissappear. She has seen her doctor numerous times, and all what he did was give her prescription after prescription. Never shook it off, her voice changed in February. She sounds terrible. Continuing with meds that never helped my mom got tired of playing games and seen her sister's GP. He sent her off right away "Last Thursday March 14 2013" to get a CT scan, and the office called her back right away on the same day. We knew already something was terribly wrong. She went in on Monday, two days ago, that the CT scan found cancer of the lungs. When she told me this I fell to the floor screaming and crying. Trying to keep the faith, the doc sent her to see the specialist right away to talk about her findings. Feeling sick to my gills, everything happened so fast. She has a tumor on her bronchial tube. The spots have spread to both lungs, there are many of them and it also went into her lymphnodes. Stage 4!! He says she is dealing with a very aggressive cancer. She goes in for biopsy next Wednesday, but the specialist said by how things look, her situation is so bad that it cannot be operated on. My family is devastated. I know that there are thousands out there who are currently suffering and have suffered loved ones battling this crazy disease.... but I can't help to say that I'm on the verge of breakdown. My mom is my best friend, SHE IS ONLY 54!!!! There is no history of cancer in the family. She just started living her life. I gave her the first grandchild, a little boy. My brother is getting married in August, and this is all nothing but a mess. She has been good to herself. Yes I won't sit here and lie, she did smoke, but she is the most loving, giving, pleasing, hardworking person in my eyes, who is the very last person to deserve this. I am trying to stay confident and positive that we can somehow slow this battle down, and bind her time, cause I know that is all we have now. Is there anyone here who has anything positive to tell me?? Believe it or not, Since her diagnosis, she is already showing rapid signs of blood slivers in her mucous when she coughs. Yesterday she found her chest was really hurting, and today she is getting prickly tender sensations in her shoulders. GOD please..... Do NOT take my mother away. I need her, we all do, and I can't even digest the thought of losing her. Does my mom stand any kind of chance, with some kind of chemo or radiation, and be with us longer than I think?? God Bless you all for listening, and for being strong. I need you guys more than ya think. I am 36, with a 2yr old son who loves his baba, and I almost feel like I need medication because I am having a difficult time dealing with this.