Mar 11, 2013 - 8:37 pm
I wanted to reach out to see if anyone else is feeling this way or is it just me.
I was diagnosed with stage 1 uterine cancer end of January 2013. I was not toally shocked as I had a feeling by D&C came back not so great as they told me it would take 10 days for results and I got called in 2 days later.
Well like the rest of you I am sure your Gyno said well if you are going to get Cancer this is the best one to get While that is reassuring .. its still "Cancer"
So the same day I went to meet with a Gyn/Onc and basically he confirmed for this staget I would need a hysterectomy/bso. I just wanted to get the cancer out.
He asked about kids if I wanted any and truth be told it was my only wish in life to have a child, but here I am 39 almost 40 and I realize not in the cards, and he also confirmed that when you have cancer, there is a small chance you could carry this onto your child so there is no way I would want that .. so we agreed best to proceed.
Anyways I had the procedure via DaVinci onm 2/14 and got results back it was stage 1A.
I am so thankful it was caught early, but it was still cancer.
My husband keeps acting like its not a big deal and they got rid of it.
Am I wrong to think that my life from diagnosis day forward will never be the same. Yes for now cancer free which is fantastic but the emotions, menopause, at each appt nervous something will come back positive, I dont want to live in fear.
I took 6 weeks off work and while I am starting to feel better with tiredness and the sweats starting, I can't stop but think this is the most alone I have felt in my life. With my husband and some family members but no friends its sad and hard at the same time.
I break down at the thought the family I so longed for I will not be able to produce myself and I feel selfish for getting sad, as stage 1 is nothing compared to other prognosies others get.
I just need someone to say what I have / had is Cancer ... and am I wrong in my thoughts?
Any input would be HUGELY appreciated.