Feb 13, 2013 - 5:24 pm
Been awhile since I posted but I find myself drawn here from time to time. Each of you offer inspiration and posess courage and express your feelings so well-I want to thank you for that.
It has been about two and a half years since my wife died. There are still days when I wonder how? How could a woman who could run marathons, never smoked, rarely drank, ate like a rabbitt die of colon cancer? Makes no sense! I really find it a mystery. Talk about denial and survivors guilt all you want but I sometimes shake my head and am mystified at how life does not make sense and here I am. I guess there are days when I feel guilty, or wonder is she woudl approve of my life today. After 32 years of marriage I can't help but feel influenced by her memory. She was a strong woman, one day she ran 3 miles with me two days after chemotherapy!
Not really looking for answers, just sharing.