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Can't Stop Crying
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Jan 22, 2013 - 11:34 pm
I lost my beloved father 2 weeks after his diagnosis of Pancreatic Cancer. I am devastated. It has only been 3 days now that I lost him, but I can't stop crying. We knew he was losing weight and had not felt well, but we had no idea it was cancer. We were told he had 2 weeks to a month to live and he passed away exactly 2 weeks after we found out. I took off work and I stayed with him everyday until his last breath. I am so glad I was there, but it was also such a terrible way to go. I feel broken now. I was greiving the whole 2 weeks when I cared for him, but now I am devastated. He was so sick at the end I prayed he would pass, but when he did I was so hearbroken all I wanted was him back. The pain and grief I feel now is unbearable. I miss him so much already. I miss the man he was. He was so frail and weak and sick at the end and that is all I can picture him as. How do you ever get over this kind of pain? I know I need time and that things will get better someday, but I also know I will never be the same. This sadness will always be with me. |
Joined: Aug 2009
I wrote something on other your other post, so I won't repeat myself. Just know that there are many here who understand your pain. Crying is not a bad thing. It helps us cope. Even now, three years after my husbands's death, I find myself in tears. Usually it is something small that sets me off, too. When I run across something and a memory comes. We never stop missing them, but we learn to live with the loss as time passes. Fay
Joined: Feb 2013
I feel for you because I just lost my mom this month. I cry everyday all the time and it never ends. I wonder myself if I will ever be able to walk in her room without breaking down. Just know there are others here for support. Best of luck with your life.
Joined: Aug 2009
I just want you to know that I am sorry you lost your mom. There aren't any words that hethat take care of yourself now. Fay
Joined: Nov 2009
Hi
I too was my Daddy's Girl. I lost my dad to Esophageal Cancer/liver cancer 3 years ago March 9th.
It is devastating. It does not get better, but it does get easier to accept. Your dad sounds
a lot like my dad did at the end. That man was not my dad....he was my dad with
Cancer. He was in pain, he suffered daily, he was not happy, he did not have a quality
of life. I was blessed the night my dad passed. He looked peaceful. He was now able
to rest. My dad is now in heaven. We will see our dad's again. Remember God's promise.
Those of you who believe in me will have eternal life. You must believe. You must have
Jesus in your heart. Stay strong, stay positive, have faith. Keep in touch.
Tina in Va