Jan 22, 2013 - 11:34 pm
I lost my beloved father 2 weeks after his diagnosis of Pancreatic Cancer. I am devastated. It has only been 3 days now that I lost him, but I can't stop crying. We knew he was losing weight and had not felt well, but we had no idea it was cancer. We were told he had 2 weeks to a month to live and he passed away exactly 2 weeks after we found out. I took off work and I stayed with him everyday until his last breath. I am so glad I was there, but it was also such a terrible way to go. I feel broken now. I was greiving the whole 2 weeks when I cared for him, but now I am devastated. He was so sick at the end I prayed he would pass, but when he did I was so hearbroken all I wanted was him back. The pain and grief I feel now is unbearable. I miss him so much already. I miss the man he was. He was so frail and weak and sick at the end and that is all I can picture him as. How do you ever get over this kind of pain? I know I need time and that things will get better someday, but I also know I will never be the same. This sadness will always be with me.