Jan 15, 2013 - 8:26 pm
I decided a couple months ago that it was time for a reboot of sorts. I had trouble feeling like myself again after the treatments ended in June. It was a combination of a lot of things: the tiredness, the side effects, reduction in the size of the company I worked for (and a corresponding huge change in my responsibilities), and a general sense that I wasn't spending my time in a way that really mattered to me. My spouse and I decided it was time for some changes!
When I realized we would probably have to move when I found a new job, I felt immediate panic about moving away from the radiation oncologist who treated me, who was amazing. Things have a way of working out for the best, though, because when I contacted him to schedule my next follow-up I discovered he was leaving the local practice and I would have to switch doctors anyway! So that got me over the fear and I accepted a job at a company in LA. My oncologist gave me the name of the H&N specialiat at UCLA and I have my records on hand to transfer my care to him.
We're getting packed and moved this weekend. It's a short move (from SF) but some big changes for us. Our new apartment is a loft, and it's walking distance to my new job so I'll be able to walk to work. It's also a walking neighborhood so we'll both get a lot more exercise. We traded in both of our existing cars for one new car today. We're going to get out more and do more together. I'm a video game designer and my new company doesn't have an IP agreement that precludes side projects, so I can work on personal projects that make me feel like I'm using my time well.
I keep feeling a tickle in the back of my throat, which is probably my old friend thrush or maybe related to this cold I'm fighting off. It was one of the first symptoms of cancer for me, though (along with a swollen lymph node by my jaw). I have an ENT appointment on Thursday, and I'm scheduling an oncology appointment for ASAP when I get to LA. I'll mention that it was a synptom I had before the diagnosis of tonsil cancer and that at that time there was nothing visible to go along with the throat tickle. We'll see if UCLA wants to do a PET scan, etc. since it will be new insurance coverage. It's hard not to freak out about it, so I keep telling myself to focus on life and not on possibilities I can't control.
So here's to rolling with the changes or, even better, embracing them!