Jan 09, 2013 - 10:17 pm
I came to a very real realization last night, and I can barely breath from my anxiety since. I decided to type some symptoms I have been having into a search. Every link, link after link, Lymphoma on every one that came up. I have had cysts on my neck since I was a girl, maybe 12. They never changed much, I never worried. My regular doctor then told my mother not to worry about them unless they ever grew and that was that. They have never grown, or least never enough for me to ever notice, but never went away either. 1 in particular is hard on my lower back hairline, upper neck about the size of a dime, but again I have never noticed any change over the years. I have been having night sweats off and on since the birth of my 3 rd son, about a year and a 1/2 ago. More frequently recently. I am tired, but I also have 3 boys, and normal stresses of life. My neck has been sore off and on for years, but about a year ago I noticed what I considered a hard spot, not lump, next to the smaller hard cyst on my upper neck, hairline. It is next to the spine, right side. I just realized if I press hard, it may be a lump, a larger one in comparison to the cyst, maybe 3 times the size, but hard to tell. I had always considered it a strain, a pull... The small one, I feel nothing. This newer hard spot, its sore, like a strain in a neck when pushed on. My entire neck feels strained in general, but its been that way for a long time. My shoulders go through periods of days or more where the itch a lot, where I cannot stop scratching. But its winter, when this began, the air did get very dry, though I can't say I have had this issue ever before. No fever that I know of. I made an appointment to see a doctor, but its 3 weeks out, I don't know how to do the waiting. I'm 30, married and I have 3 beautiful children, they need me, I feel a sense of terror right now. I mean I know no one here can say much without a diagnosis, but this doesn't sound great, right? Please, I need some honesty.