I'm six months into treatment for anal cancer
Originally my doctor had told me he would like to tell me by Christmas I'm cured.
I now have a much more grim diagnosis, I was told yesterday by my second opinion of doctors
I will be lucky to live even with a colostomy, and vaginal reconstructive surgery.
Ive gone from ok with it, to sad and scared, to its going to be alright, to why are we all here
and whats the point of life, what is it all about anyway?
My thoughts twist back and forth, and there's always a scared sick feeling of worry
just under the surface.