Jan 04, 2013 - 12:56 pm
I feel the need to vent a little and this seems to be a safe place to do so. I had a double mastectomy backing in /september with expanders placed for reconstruction. It was trouble from the start and about 8 weeks later I had to have emergency surgery to have them removed due to a severe infection. I never even got to have any fills. I was told that I could revisit recon at a later date. My priority has been getting through chemo, (less than half way done). My problem seems to be that everyone, including all my doctors seem to think that I should start reconstruction again as soon as my chemo is done. They make me feel ugly! What is the matter with me staying like this. Yes, I am very aware that the feminine form is usually a lot more curvy than mine, I can wear my prothesesis when I chose to, I find them heavy and not too comfortable. My husband seems to feel the same as the doctors and I'm beginning to feel that my breasts are for everyone but me. I should mention that I am 55 years young and in otherwise excellent health. I have had a total of 12 different surgerys in my life for everything from fibroids to gall bladder and the thought of another time under the knife terrifies me.
I would love to hear from some of you who did not have reconstruction on how you dealt with it, your own feels as well as the treatment you get from others.