Jan 03, 2013 - 8:07 am
Okay just curious if you guys had the same apprehension as I do. I have read all the wonder inspiratoinal threads helping me deal with this But somehow there is this looming apprehension of putting these "chemicals" in my body and not knowing what will happen.
Similar to a number of other folks I have rarely taken medicine and tend to avoid them at all costs if necessary. But now we are going to put the all time chemical in my body. I know it is for the better but it also has for the worst.
My personality is one that likes information and control and now I am in a position of minimal information and control. I was originaly going to start next week but i healed so fast they called and said we will start tomorrow. Wow what a shocker, there went my weekend before chemo out the door. Of course I freeked out as it has been hard to shop for a wig during the holiday weeks as shops were closed and manufacturers were closed for inventory. So wouldn't it have been nice to go back and see if what I picked out was in before I started this mess. Nope, that will not happen.
Maybe it is better to minimize the wait but oh boy. What a learning experience for my type of personality. I am grateful that the weather is so nice and sunny as I can go out and go for some nice walks before tomorrow. Can't even sneak in an "illegal" bike ride as it snowed this past week and the roads are still pretty messy. Guess that is good as I really shouldn't do that.
I am trying to align my thinking that this chemo process is my "partner", and hopefully Joe Chemo my new partner treats me as nice as all my friends and family.
well off to get the steroids I will need to take tonight (how wonderful). Taking steroids the night before, guess sleep will not be too easy, especially for me the type that thinks and analyzes most things until the cows come out.
Oh and then there is the 6 hours in a chair while all this happens. Guess it is time for me to learn to relax. My first thought was what will I do for 6 hours just sitting there!
as always I invite words of wisdom and helpful hints.
thanks much and hope everyone's 2013 has been treating them well!