Dec 25, 2012 - 7:46 am
[RANT] Based on reading research papers on the internet, the mass on my lung is likely a metatseses of my Kidney tumor. If that is the case, then my cancer is stage IV, not stage I. The 5 year survival rate is pretty low....I can find numbers of 8%...or I can find numbers (for single lung mass) of 60%). Then there is the fact that there are probably kidney cancer cells in my blood/lymph system. So, new tumors can form. What I note though is a lot of the mortality figures is based on older data -- before the modern treatments. Also, the internet has not seen my scans -- they have not seen the specific item on the CT scan. The internet does not know this about me. While google may know almost everything about me, HIPAA does not allow it to see the volume renderings. Otherwise, I would see popup adds for eternal care, and for religions pointing out it is not too late to repent.[/RANT]
All kidding aside, there is a chance that I am suffering from data fed acute hypochondria. I hope so. I really love watching my daughter grow up, listening to her play the Piano. If the mass is real, the reality of my life changes. I might win round two. But the cancer probably will win -- baring a cure at the molecular level. However, there is a difference in the cancer winning when I am 90 compared to when I am 49. Heck, I need to see Bryce Harper hit his 1000th home run. I need to see Abigail's Bat Mitzvah.
Mostly, I wait find out that this blog was premature, and I am suffering from internet exacerbated acute hypochondria.