Dec 18, 2012 - 9:44 pm
Most of us have experienced psychological effects of cancer, treatment and menopause: fear, anxiety, depression, mood swings, loss of control, memory loss, relationship and intimacy issues, the list is long and tedious. We all cope with those new aspects of our lives differently. I sometimes envy people having strong religious and spiritual convictions.
Since my cancer journey began almost 8 months ago I have been mildly depressed.
The therapist was a quiet middle-aged lady only dealing with cancer patients.
For an hour I would not shut up. Nothing could stop me, not even the fact that English is not my first language. There was neither structure nor flow to this appointment, just the sound of my voice. I was spilling my guts to this stranger jumping from topic to topic: from my views on conventional and alternative medicine, on euthanasia, on afterlife, on open marriage and teenage kids, to my weird dreams and dark desires; and I don’t remember what else (blame chemo brain). She was nodding a lot and taking notes.
JUST BE THERE AND LET ME VENT. Kind of like this board.
P.S. I hope her notes don’t get me committed LOL