Dec 15, 2012 - 11:57 pm
Today I am four years cancer free!! My husband calls it my VC day (victory from cancer). My VC day to us is the day I had my bilateral mastectomy. My oncotype score was a 13 so I chose not to have chemo (the hardest decision of my life) and began taking tamoxifen. Took that for 2 years and then switched to Aromasin after hysterectomy. My question is, "Does any one ever feel that you are faking it? " I mean faking that you are OK? That you don't think that every pain is a recurrence? That you feel 20 years older than what you are because of the medicine? That you are even close to the person you were before this all started? I try so hard not to complain about how I feel because I feel that I have put my husband, family and friends through so much. They are great and I want them to think I am the same person I was 4 years ago and that everything is OK.
I think hearing how lucky I am all day because it was ONLY stage 1 (I hate when people say that), just got to me today. Thank you for allowing me to vent. What a great site and what an amazing group of people you are.