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The passing of my beloved husband

Elizabeth 1978
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In may my journey began with the love of my life, I thought that he would have survive but its been a hell of a journey that turn my life upside down.

After having surgery and losing his ability to speak and eat and having a feeding tube, nothing we did was making anything for the better, after been told his tumor had been removed and that Chemo and Radiation would complete his treatment, it was not meant to be, We were giving the run around in the first place and nothing was making him better,

He was my life and I was his, I had my heart broken so many times and I cry day and night looking for hope but even that is taken away. After an infection and a 2nd opinion and been told that the cancer had spread and the loosing of his vision on the right eye it was heart breaking but I stood and comfort him and told him things will be ok.

On Wed between 6.15 and 6.20 in the afternoon, I held him and told him I gave him permission to die, that it was ok to go and that he did not need to suffer or fight for me, I told him to look for his father and that I love him, and he took his last breath and went.

My heart was shutter and my soul is gone, I know now that no matter how much i wish he would have come back and woke up it was not meant to be.

I feel for all the people that suffer from this dreadful decease because its a cruel one to have.

xoxox

My facebook has a few messages of the people that have pass their sympatiu

Chloe Elizabeth Osorio facebook ID

MarineE5
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Joined: Dec 2005

Elizabeth,

No words that I type today will ease the pain that you feel. Hopefully, as time passes, so does the pain and only fond memories remain.

Semper Fidelis (Always Faithful) He to you and you to him....

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amy_h414
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Elizabeth you have my deepest sympathies. You are right that it is a cruel disease. No one should have to suffer like this.

luvofmylif
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Joined: Sep 2012

Oh my God, that instills great sorrow that I have for you and great fear for me. I can't say anything to make you feel better I know. I too, think this a dreadful disease. I don't know how anyone can make it through without the love of their life. Praying for peace for you. At least he is not suffering anymore but I know you miss him.

Joan

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Tonsil Dad
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Elizabeth, please accept our deepest sympathy, words cannot
express your feelings for the loss of your husband, partner , soul mate.
It hurts each and everyone of us on here when we loose one of our OWN to
this horrible disease.
He is no longer suffering and I pray your grieving will be swift.

God bless
Tonsil dad,

Dan.

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VivianLee5689
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Elizabeth I really hated to read your post. My heart is breaking for you. I wish we didn't have to lose our loved ones and have to tell them its ok to leave us. I still have David, but based on what the doctors said today I too am facing the reality that my love is going to die. My heart truly aches for you. I am so sorry for your loss.

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ToBeGolden
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Cancer is a real Beast. To die (or have a loved one die) is difficult enough, but why does the road to the afterlife have to be such a struggle? I am sure that your husband is standing next to his father, and they are both looking down at you. Rick.

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Skiffin16
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So sorry for the passing of your husband, it's terrible to read of such loss. It takes a piece of me away....

Just know that your husband is with oyu, in you and a part of you, he will always be.

So even though his body is gone, his spirit and memories will be with you forever.

prayers with you,
John

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Skiffin16
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Double

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John

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blackswampboy
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“They that love beyond the world cannot be separated by it.
Death cannot kill what never dies.
Nor can spirits ever be divided, that love and live in the same divine principle, the root and record of their friendship.
If absence be not death, neither is theirs.
Death is but crossing the world, as friends do the seas; they live in one another still.
For they must needs be present, that love and live in that which is omnipresent.
In this divine glass they see face to face; and their converse is free, as well as pure.
This is the comfort of friends, that though they may be said to die, yet their friendship and society are, in the best sense, ever present, because immortal.”
― William Penn, Some Fruits of Solitude / More Fruits of Solitude

Noellesmom
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Thank you for sharing that.

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Pam M
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Touching

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phrannie51
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at this time...my heartfelt sympathies are with you.

p

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NJShore
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Elizabeth,

I am so sorry for your loss. I hope you find great comfort in friends and family and your memories.

Kari and Dan

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CivilMatt
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Elizabeth,

I am sorry for the loss of your husband and I am sorry for the cruel path of cancer. Remember fondly the days before.

Best,

Matt

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Billie67
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I am so very sorry to hear of your husbands passing. I will pray for you to find peace, cancer is such a dreadful disease, I hate it!!!
Billie

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Mikemetz
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Joined: Nov 2011

Your post was so touching that it brought me to tears. I am so sorry for your loss. At the same time, it reminded me to never take for granted the fact that I am one of the fortunate people who have survived HNC--so far. Thank you for that reminder.

Mike

Noellesmom
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I am so sorry, Elizabeth.

Your husband was blessed to have a wife who loved him so much. I can only imagine how difficult this is for you.

shoeloy
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Joined: May 2011

I know it is very hard for you. I have watched the love of my life suffer through all of my treatments and preyend to be strong. You will always have him with you in spieit and pray that God allows comfort and peace for you and your family. We all here eill continue to pray for you.

Loyd

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Pam M
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Chloe Elizabeth, I ache for you. I'm so sorry your husband has been taken from you. I understand he just couldn't make the recovery we'd all have liked, but it's hard to think that the asked-for miracle just wasn't to be. I hope you find some small comfort here and there, and that you can spend some time with others who cared for him. I wish, with all the advice we all throw out on this site, that we could offer some to help get you through this horrible time.

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Tim6003
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It does break my heart to read you post. Your love for Bernard is obvious in the words you use. He was a very blessed man to have you in his life, I do wish things had worked out better for you.

I will keep you on the prayer list if okay by you, my prayer will be for some peace and comfort, but I know your loss is great. I too lost my dad and my brother in the same year (2011) to cancer, just months apart.

I truly am sorry for your loss. Out of respect and honor for Bernard, I gave a moment of silence before I hit the post commment button. Bless you.

Best,

Tim

Vee1
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Joined: Nov 2012

I am so very, very sorry for your loss.

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