Dec 05, 2012 - 3:08 pm
On Monday I had a partial barium swallow at the insistence of my new pulmonary Dt and my wife. I told them I couldn't do it because I simply can't sawallow - guess they didn't believe me. When I got there they had all of the things I've seen before, barium solutions, crackers etc. The first thing I had to try was the thickest solution of barium which went about two inches down my throat then the DR said "stop". It was all going into my lungs. Now I have this crap in my lungs and mixed in with my "rope mucus" Dr says don't drink because it goes into the lungs but what he doesn't realize is thst the only way I can get this mess out of my throat is to garggle with hot water or drink a haot drink which I had to do in order to breath normally. I was coughing up chalk all day. Went to bed last night and woke up around 3:00am freezing my butt off and I couldn't talk. Finally around 5:00 my wife got up and thurned the heat on and came in to check on me. Well I had a very high temp and blood pressure was 80 something over 47. Been there and done that another bout of pneumonia. she started fluids through my Peg and for thr first time ever I threw everything upand the good thing is I got rid of that stupid chalk that way. Went to my GP and he has me on antibiotics and a nebulizer that I ave to use four times a day. I told him I hated this process of dying just a small bit at a time (which is very true) so he immediately putme on antidepressants. I assume these will help me die in a good frame of mind.
Sorry about the pity party but I really am getting tired of this mess.