Nov 30, 2012 - 1:14 am
I was diagnosed with colon cancer stage 2 in August of 2010. It tested high risk for reoccurrence and I had resection and 12 chemo treatments. I handled the chemo as well as can be expected. My last treatment was in 05/2011. I am fortunate as I do not have any signs of reoccurrence. I worked all the way through treatment. I have always been a very hard worker. Actually I had true passion for my work.
My problem is that I am always so tired and usually don’t feel well. Don’t remember things often and don’t feel like doing anything. I am always agitated about something. I question if I want to stay married, don’t seem to be interested in my grown kids, don’t enjoy working. (I think because my forgetfulness and errors) I seem not to have gone back to my usually happy self. Every small thing seems to throw me off kilter. It seems like it has been over a year and I should move on as there is no cancer to be found. Lab tests all come back perfect and colonoscopy came back great. I have so much to be thankful for… but my joints hurt, hands and feet sporadic pain, headaches, disinterest in sex, eyes burn, can’t sleep and right side pain under ribcage. Tests show nothing is wrong with me.
I am overweight but not huge. Prior to cancer I was very active and had a hard time sitting down. Now I am happiest just being left alone. Did anyone experience anything like this? Does it just take time to get back into the swing of things? I don’t mean to whine I am just a little tired of myself.