Nov 29, 2012 - 9:48 am
So Ive been reading and posting a bit to this board for about a week now, trying to adjust to my new life of a cancer person. Ughh, still seems so sad and unreal for me.
I am gearing up for my first hellish weekend, Friday Pre Op stuff, blood, EKG, whatever else, then Sunday, the dreaded Sentinel Node Dye injection, then Monday my surgery for Lumpectomy. Followed by recovery from surgery and waiting for more bad news from the pathology from the surgery.
But what Im wondering about, is as I read posts here, MOST seem to be from those either about to begin this horrific deal, as I am, and those that are post treatment, trying to regain their lives after chemo and rad.
What I dont see much of, is posts from those actually in the midst of chemo or radiation? My negative/cynical brain gets signals from that, that its because it is just SOOO Horrific, that once that starts, its so bad, that no one is able or willing to come back here and share the misery.
Thats why I was so interested in seeing Eleanor post after her first chemo. I really hope she can come back and post as she gets past the first few days, and how it all affects her. I have been waiting to hear back from Lucy something, but alas not a word. It worries me., (but about everything does these days)
So, who else here is mid treatment and can share your experiences, bad AND good, or at least how you have fared thru it so far.
I go to sleep scared, I wake up scared, seems fear has just taken over my otherwize happy life.
Thanks for putting up with my scardy cat ramblings here...