Nov 27, 2012 - 8:15 am
I am just a mess. I have lived thru all kinds of challenges in my 62 years, I have lived thru hurricanes, being alone in Boston, during 9/11 on a business trip, breaking down in a rental car on a deserted road in a rain storm in the middle of the night in a strange city, really intense 6 hour route canals... and other life challenges.
BUT, I have NEVER ever felt such intense fear and anxiety as I have been experiencing with this, mostly about the dye injection and surgery part of this journey. I have a really intense, probably irrational fear of surgery (from a past bad experience), and pretty much medical procedures in general.
When I had the appointments with all the doctors last week, they saw how hysterical I was and suggested getting some anti anxiety meds, like Xanax. I have never taken any of that stuff and dont know what to expect.
Today at 10am I have an appointment (they set up for me) with a Psychiatrist to get some, maybe. Now why, after seeing 4 MDs, they could not just write a Rx, is beyond me, makes my cynical brain think, they just want to spread the wealth, and get as many of their cronies as possibnle in on the billing venal drip, but thats just me.
So, this is my long winded way of asking, has anyone else experienced such intense fear/anxiety over this, and went the route of drug assisted anti anxiety meds? And if so, did it help?
I cant believe Im going to a Psychiatrist, I have never been, Im normally a very well adjusted happy person, but this has just done a major number on me :(