Nov 26, 2012 - 12:28 am
Friends, she no longer can stand up to go to the bathroom, she was devastated because she had to use a bedpan/pamper. She had the second dose of the trial chemo on Friday, nothing to eat. Saturday, she slept all day and ate nothing only a few sips of juice or water and was getting very agitated at the nurses. Sunday morning around 8:00 she sat up on bed and wanted to get up then her eyes rolled back and she started to rub her stomach. Pain medicine(morphine) was increased to make her comfortable. She is now in a coma. They gave us 48 hours. My beautiful most lovely daughter is losing the battle. I had a chat with her on Friday morning and she told me and my other daughter that she was dying because she can feel a tingle in her chest but she was really not ready. Friends, I know that this is all part of life and that we cannot curl up and die with our loved one, but my heart is shattered. When do we put the pieces back together and how long does it take to come to terms with losing a 45 year old daughter. This week is one year since diagnosis and my child was sure that she was going to survive this monster. Just Friday she asked the Doc if he had given her the chemo. I know that she was disappointed that she did not get better.