Nov 16, 2012 - 1:45 am
I have posted before asking for information about what to expect in recovery - bilateral mastectomy with SNB and reconstruction - being a single and independent person and I got a lot of most helpful replies. And the good news is that one of my sisters-in-law will be flying out to spend a week and a half with me to help me get over the initial hump and to help set me up for the weeks ahead.
However, I am still baffled about my personal response to all this. I have major surgery in a week and a half. Every time I tell a dear friend or co-worker about my situation, I get teared up. However, for some reason, I have not yet been able to cry over my situation.
Although I have been diagnosed with cancer (albeit stage 0 but very aggressive) and I am undergoing major surgery at the end of the month, I have not had any feelings about this. I am numb and cannot really comprehend that I am going to have a life changing surgery in a week and a half.
Is this normal? Shouldn't I be scared out of my wits? The only symptom I have experienced is waking up at 3 - 4 am and not being able to get back to sleep.
Please let me know how others are dealing with this.