Nov 14, 2012 - 10:07 pm
I am an ovarian cancer survivor!!! That is a great statement to make. I am proud to make such a statement...and I do believe it. However, as life reminds us daily...there is always a "however"....Transitions of cancer is what I think of..... I survived....I'm glad for that, but it took a toll. One that I did not think changed me but it did. I had seven months of treatment starting in April. I adjusted.....I learned about ovarian cancer, chemo treatments, side effects of treatment, mortality rates, change in diet, attitude adjustments, survival rates, and many more learning aspects. I survived nausea, hair loss, fatigue, loss of normal activities, loss of normal thoughts, loss of intimacy, loss of the life I knew before. I am now in recovery...recovery of what? I can hardly remember what life is like without the big "C" in the forefront of my mind. I still see cancer every time I look in the mirror. It could be me with a scarf or me without and have a tiny thin hair. More hair than I have seen in months, but not the hair I remember. My perspective on life is different. I can't quite describe the change, but it is there. I am now waiting to return to what I feel is a norm, but also knowing that norm is gone. Transitions are troublesome, and I know, take time to evolve.