Nov 13, 2012 - 10:00 am
Good Morning Sweet Warriors :) I'm just checking in with all of you as I said I would do. If I'm not able, I've given my daughter the information she needs to get on here should I get sick. Speaking of, that beautiful little girl of mine threw a beautiful tribute party for me this past Saturday and I'm beside myself at all the people, kind words, gifts, flowers, etc. Not only is my girl an RN that works 12+ hour shifts, she is still in school full time, newly married, new home owner, and so much more, she put up the coolest tribute I've ever seen. She put my ancestors in albums with old black and whites that date back to the 1800's identified and preserved, made a ton of wonderful food along with pink frosted breast cancer ribbon cookies :), and I could go on forever with all that my little sweetheart has done, she is amazing and adorable!!
I also wanted to say, without bringing up any specifics, because it doesn't matter, and it only causes hurt; I'm a very forgiving person and of course I accept with honor, all and any apologies. I'm all for peace, love, kindness, and the warmth that we get/give on this site. It was wrong of me to post a PM and cause so much hurt, and I'm very sorry for any that I did.
Rebecca (hearts-in-hand): Please accept my apology as well and I pray you'll continue to come here and be a part of this great group. Peace, strength, and miles of love to you dear sister :)
I'm holding in ok. I have an RN (today) that comes once a week, a PCT that comes once a week, and Chaplins as well. It's hard for me to even think of that fact that I'm at lifes end, and I cry every time I think of it. It's hard to accept all of this!! When I look into my children/step childrens eyes, it breaks my heart to think of what they are about to go through, as I lost my Mom in 2007, I know very well :( I find myself trying to numb the pain by pretending this isn't happening, or not thinking at all. I'm not driving much any more, maybe once or twice a week, this really makes me sad, I used to put 100 miles on a day, now I'm more at home and doing a whole lot of nothing. Accepting all of this has been a hard pill to swallow, and I think it'll always be that way, kind of hard to avoid the obvious.
I'm praying for all of you every day, and you are all on my mind as well. I'm going to try and catch up on the boards so I'll close at that or I'll babble on forever lol.
MIles of Love,