Missing my mom..

My passed away about 2 months ago after a 3 year battle with ovarian cancer. My grandfather (her father) passed away exactly one month after she did. I have been trying to keep myself occupied but ever so often (today, for instance), I just have a really terrible day and I can't exactly put words to it. I'm 23 years old and I feel like I only really started talking to my mom as an "equal" about 4 years ago. I was so happy to be getting to know her as an adult. I loved talking to her everyday, surprising her with gifts during treatments and desserts when I came home from college. Her death was sudden and quick (rare with ovarian cancer) but just not how I had imagined. I miss her so much and it's so hard to imagine this feeling ever going away.

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  • MamasBoy
    MamasBoy Member Posts: 5
    I lost my mother over two
    I lost my mother over two weeks ago. There are moments where it feels like I forget...or it could be that I feel like my mom is around, literally. However, that feeling comes crashing down when I recall seeing her body in the hospital, at the funeral home, her casket being buried.

    What helps me is just recalling when she was active, the shows she enjoyed watching, the garden she maintained, whatever brought a smile to her face, her talks with me, some things that she confided in me. Just focus on the positives; the nice things you and your mother did, shared.

    Any wise or kind words your mom said? Did anything fun together? Recall them. Don't forget them. I recall some things my mom said and they always bring a smile to my face.