Oct 11, 2012 - 8:54 pm
My mum was diagnosed with cancer on her spine in november 2011. Everything started to move really quickly, radiation, chemotherapy and lots of hospitilaztion. She soon found out she had a tumour on her left lung which I guess was the primary tumour. My mom raised my sister and I by herself, she was a very independent woman. The worst thing about that whole few months was seeing her dignity leave, it was physically heartbreaking. I then decided to be her main caregiver.I drove her to appointmenta, fed, bathed, and kept her loving company :) My mom tried and fought more than anyone I know, yet we would never talk about her sickness really. She cut off all ties from most of her family and friends because she thought this would just be a hurdle in life she would overcome. Near the end,she was in her hospital bed and i came to do my hourly visits. I over heard her speak with a counsellor saying that I was her biggest support system. That thought helps me to this day with getting by. The moment my mother passed away I was literally walking into the room, I got a call 10min earlier saying I had to be there because she was going to pass away any second. I do beleive that my mom passed away right before I walked into the room because she knows how hard it would have been for me to see her from alive to gone.
It has been a long, hard road since shes been gone. Although, I will be honest I felt a huge sense of peacefullness the moment I knew she was gone. The fact that "the fights over." I would never ever wish upon anyone what my poor mum went through....
It felt almost easy at the begininng, i knew i was in shock. It wasn't until about 2 months ago I had a breakdown at work when I saw a mother and daughter together. I literally fell into peices. I then took myself to get therapy weekly. I highly recommend therapy for anyone who has gone through this. It has helped me tenfold.
I am now proud to say I have been accepted into the Residential Care Aid program