Oct 11, 2012 - 12:23 am
I have been crying the past two days not much sleep..my husband 54, of 22 years has health issues this past year with undiagnosed vertigo and funky blood profiles..long story short referred to hemetologist and initial testing indicate M protein, though low in his blood and also protein in his urine..The doc now has ordered bone scan, bone marrow and fatty biopsy..A little knowledge is very harmful especially with my hypochondriacal mind..From the information we have it is pretty certain of multiple myeloma MM or MGUS which is undiagnosed M proteins..His mother died of MM in 1999. I wish I knew the definitive as this waiting may realistically cause me health problems..I know I have no control and what is there is there and we have to deal with it..I am so scared..We both work full time, have one in college and I have multiple health issues as well. I just don't know how I will handle things..I have never done the bills, don't know squat about cars, and am really been dependent on him for so much, especially after my car accident and spinal injury...I am so paralyzed with fear and i just can't stop crying..thank god i see my therapist tomorrow..i love my husband so much and fear losing him and not having his girls around to walk them down the aisle and all the important events..I know I am catastrophizing. I just needed to vent..he does not want me telling people..i am going to explode..why do tests take so long.. sorry for my rambling...